I thought I was past this, but I guess I'm not. Yet.
I don't quite obsess over my reader numbers like I once did, but it's hard for an over-achiever like me to not "see" success. I realized that even if I have thousands of readers, God may be using my blog to reach only one person. And looking at all the numbers in the world just won't tell me that.
With all the writing I have as an editor, and duties as a wife and mother, I just don't have time to waste focusing on junk that doesn't matter. I feel like I was trying to blog just to keep up my numbers (like I have more than 4 readers anyway!)
So, my counters are all deleted. Know why?
God asked me to.
I resisted a little. Maybe I can just promise to only look on the first of the month, or only on Saturday, etc. But then I said, "Nope. God didn't say 'stop looking so much.' He said, 'Get rid of it.'"
So, I did. I pushed that "delete" key. My hope is that maybe one day, God will tell me that it's OK to look. And I want to see the big numbers that God brought because I was obedient when He told me to "get rid of it."
Isn't it silly all the crazy ways Satan can try to trip us up?