It happened again. It just amazes me how sneaky Satan is when he tries disrupt the good we do. In a way, I felt like this blog would be a ministry. A way to reach out, share a nugget of truth from God's word, and in the words of Lysa TerKeurst, "let people meet my Jesus" because they saw Him in me, through my words and the life I live.
So I got excited. This will be great! So I registered with a couple of blog-type services. I'm new and have no idea what I'm doing, so I signed up to monitor statistics, and to ping stuff, and to subscribe quickly, and most of it I have no idea what I just did. I started out thinking it's just a good idea, or even just fun trivia, to see how many people actually read what I posted.
And then it happened. I found myself checking my stats several times a day. Wondering why I had 14 hits last night and none all day today. And it suddenly stopped being a ministry, and became a numbers game. A popularity contest. It stopped being about God, and started being about me.
Thankfully, it did not take me six months to come to this realizaton like it did with my knitting ministry. I hope that means that I actually did learn a lesson in that experience, and will not repeat the same mistakes.
So, I am not going to check my stats constantly. I'm not signing up to ping anything else, or boost my search engine ranking, or anything else that is remotely about me.
I will only check my stats either once a day or once a week. I'm waiting to hear from my God about that. And when I do check them, I don't want to say, "What's wrong with MY numbers? Look how MY blog is doing." I want to say, "Wow! Look at that! God used my little blog to reach someone 2,000 miles away from me today. Look what God is doing."
I want that new perspective. And my Jesus will give it me...